Post by Nanori on Jul 24, 2012 13:18:17 GMT -5
Dear Journal, 5/2
Kailei suggested that I write in one of these things. I keep having horrible dreams....mostly flashbacks you could call them. I refused to go see a priest...Kailei keeps trying to make me go...but I do not need some drivel about faith and good behavior to clear my thoughts.
So instead for now I will write down my dreams, so I can maybe help to expel them from my head.
Last night I dreamt of my original confrontation with Orest. There were vivid flashes of blood, mine as it clouded my vision...his face, the sadistic grin as the flash of his dagger was all I was able to see...
Then the dream changed. I saw bodies...the bodies of my victims from the past, piled at my feet, as blood ran down my cheek from the eye socket that had healed months ago. And I saw my sister, laying on the ground, I felt my dream self run to her, and she was dead...both her eyes were cut from her face, I woke up SCREAMING journal...I screamed and I screamed at the top of my lugs. The innkeeper in Dalaran didn't like that much...so here I am...with my breakfast of fruit and water...trying to put some sort of explanation to all of it. I know, that Orest will try and hurt me in any way that he possibly can...that's why the fake necklaces...and now I am dreaming of Kailei's death. I will not let him harm the only family I have left in the world.
I know that Kailei can protect herself, she is a skilled mender, and although rusty with actual combat, she can hold her own. But I may just have to watch her a bit more closely in the coming weeks.
Nanori
Kailei suggested that I write in one of these things. I keep having horrible dreams....mostly flashbacks you could call them. I refused to go see a priest...Kailei keeps trying to make me go...but I do not need some drivel about faith and good behavior to clear my thoughts.
So instead for now I will write down my dreams, so I can maybe help to expel them from my head.
Last night I dreamt of my original confrontation with Orest. There were vivid flashes of blood, mine as it clouded my vision...his face, the sadistic grin as the flash of his dagger was all I was able to see...
Then the dream changed. I saw bodies...the bodies of my victims from the past, piled at my feet, as blood ran down my cheek from the eye socket that had healed months ago. And I saw my sister, laying on the ground, I felt my dream self run to her, and she was dead...both her eyes were cut from her face, I woke up SCREAMING journal...I screamed and I screamed at the top of my lugs. The innkeeper in Dalaran didn't like that much...so here I am...with my breakfast of fruit and water...trying to put some sort of explanation to all of it. I know, that Orest will try and hurt me in any way that he possibly can...that's why the fake necklaces...and now I am dreaming of Kailei's death. I will not let him harm the only family I have left in the world.
I know that Kailei can protect herself, she is a skilled mender, and although rusty with actual combat, she can hold her own. But I may just have to watch her a bit more closely in the coming weeks.
Nanori